I’ve been real busy trying to get my research paper’s done. I’ve also been drowning in my anxiety and my stress levels are way off chart. I can’t stand that I’m an introvert and an empath. I feel exhausted and fatigued all the time. Add hypersensitive to that. I feel I’m spiraling into depression.
I have so much on my plate, so what, in my right mind, made me think that I could add more?
I know I’m doing good, but at what cost? With no help or support my kiddos often see an angry mom. I try not to be. I don’t know how much more of this emotional rollercoaster I can take.
I can’t stand a lot of noise but I have no escape. I can’t stand the whinning, but I do whatever I can to make them happy.
I worked for 3+ hours trying to get an official outline of my 10 page research done that would’ve been maybe an hours worth. And I’ve yet to finish it. It’s got to be turned in Sunday evening.
During those three hours, I was constantly interupted by questions, wants, and tattle tales. This was right after supper so they weren’t hungry but yet asked for snacks, which I obliged. They had already had drinks but asked for more. Then there was the never ending tattle tales. And y’all already know I can’t focus for anything unless I’m left alone. It’s frustrating, to say the least.
I kept telling them that I’m doing homework, let me finish. I repeatedly asked them to go into the living room or their room until I’m done and they’d repeatedly come back.
I hate feeling angry and frustrated. I want to feel happy and relaxed. (I have many other vents that affect my moods but I’d rather keep them private). I just needed to complain. I’m sure there are far worst things that others are going through. It’s just, this is what I’m going through right now that’s hard.
This blog, my drawing, and my crochet are what helps a little but with the never-ending demands of my kiddos and all around household I don’t get much time with that either.
I need a fishing trip all by myself. Yep, that’s what I need. Just me, a boat, and my fishing gear. Okay, maybe the kiddos would enjoy it too.
Whelp, that’s all for now.
Until next time. . .
You have earned a place on the Winter 2016 School of Arts and Sciences Dean’s List at Southern New Hampshire University. Being named to this list reflects the consistent academic excellence of your work this last semester or term. Well Done!
The Dean’s List is an academic achievement awarded to a select group of students who have committed to academic excellence during a semester or term. To be eligible for this honor, a student must attain an academic grade point average of 3.50 – 3.699.
Although, at the moment, my GPA is 3.732 I’ll take it!
I nearly cried reading this. I feel my hard work is paying off. I hope to continue keeping the GPA as I work towards my BA.
Just wanted to take a moment to share this milestone with y’all!
Thank y’all so much for all the encouragement!
Check out the meet and greet on Nikki’s blog! Get on over there and hang around awhile and meet some new people and have fun!
I’ve been thinking of looking into pen palling (if that’s even a word). I used to when I was younger. I thought it was kind of a lost art, due to fb and email,but when I checked out the penpals hashtags on IG I saw that there were people who still pen-pal. Who new?! I love snail mail!
So to those that pen-pal, do you just randomly pick someone and say hey let’s be pen-pals? Do you pick a pen-pal from another country you’d like to learn more about? How do you go about becoming someone’s pen-pal? I guess I’m asking what is the pen pal etiquette?